Final Blog

I sincerely wish my final blog could be written on a happy note.  Before Wednesday, I loved my life.  It was absolutely perfect.  Then, Wednesday right before this class final, it all came crashing down.  I wish I could have held it together during class, but I was a mess.  ___  was just being so evil.  First, I loved him.  Then, it all fell apart in a DAY.  What relationship falls apart in a day?  Now I can't stop texting him like it's seventh grade or something.  Talk about embarrassing.  And to top of my embarrassment, he doesn't text back.  Awesome.  So long, blog.

Finals and stuff

Ugh, the dreaded finals.  I have heard awful things about finals, but being a freshman I have never had to endure them.  I have been studying sooooo hard for science.  I have an 80.99 in science, talk about borderline.  I am so nervous :/  At least my science final is on a thursday (:

For Christmas, Carter got me this beautiful blue necklace and I have been wearing it ever since (:
I have decided, I love love.

Today

Today is Sunday.  I usually hate Sunday's because I always have that feeling of, gross, I have school tomorrow.  Today was different though because Carter came over and we watched Casper (which is great because I call him Casper haha).  Then we hung out for a while and he left.  It was such a good day (: 
But still, I don't want to go to school tomorrow :/

Thanksgiving

Usually I kind of think of Thanksgiving as the slack off break time.  But, I realized I do have a lot to be thankful for.  I am thankful for my friends, the ones who get me through the day.  I am thankful for Carter, who treats me better than I could ever ask.  I am thankful for my family, they're always there for me.  I am thankful for where I live, I could have it much worse.  This Thanksgiving I am thankful for everything in my life and I wouldn't change a thing.

(:

So, I'm dating this guy named Carter and he's pretty great.  He actually makes me like school, what is that?
I just thought I would vent. (:

Friends

As embarrassing as it may seem, in middle school I always was like stressing about if my friends liked me or if I was annoying them.  Honestly, I was scrambling to fit in, and failing miserably.   But suddenly this year I feel like I have a place in this world.  I never question whether or not I'm bothering my friends and it's just the best feeling ever.  People in the past told me that I would hate high school with a burning passion, but compared to middle school high school is heaven.  I love my friends, and I'm happy to know that the feeling is mutual.
Goodbye Rocky Heights,
Lauren.

Halloween

As weird as it may seem, I hate halloween.  Everyone always gets so pumped up about it but personally I think it's pointless and dumb.  The only good thing about it is that it's close to Christmas.

Jasey Rae, All Time Low

"I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.  I've never made a bet but we gamble with desire.  I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire, but recently the flames are getting out of control.  Call me a name, kill me with words.  Forget about me It's what I deserve."

Love that song (:

Fall Break

So I just got back from Maui like three hours ago and it was amazing.
I'm really tired though because the flight lasted all night so I only got about six hours of sleep. 
In Maui we went snorkeling and saw eels and turtles, it was amazing.
I'm also not albino anymore c:
We stayed at this hotel called the Ritz Carlton, It's a five star hotel and it had the coolest pool ever.  Now I'm addicted to mango smoothies that you can order at the pool, they're amazing.

Even though Maui was great, it sucks to have to come back to reality.

Coffee Break by Forever the Sickest Kids

I'm two cups into my coffee break
I'm sitting alone in the cafe front way
Reading all by myself
I'm Turning my cell off just to breathe
'Cause everyone I know just keeps calling me
And I just need a little time

Cause I've overcommitted myself
I guess this is growing up
I'm sleeping so little these days
I guess this is growing up
I'm feeling things are about to change
I'm guessing this is growing up
Yeah, I'm guessing this is growing up

And my mom hates my guts
She has every reason to
From all the things I do
And it breaks me just to know
That I have torn her apart so many times
So many times

Cause I've overcommitted myself
I guess this is growing up
I'm sleeping so little these days.
I guess this is growing up
I'm feeling things are about to change
I'm guessing this is growing up
Oh I'm guessing this is growing up

I don't wanna change, I wanna stay right where I lay
Eyes closed, head down on the pillow,
Better change, before it's too late,
I'm guessing this is growing up...

Now I'm done with my coffee break
I turn on my phone
Now that I've grown up

Homecoming

So I went to homecoming last night and I was actually suprised.  I definitely had the lowest expectations ever because I heard they suck but I had a good time.  Before I went over to my friends house and there was about 10 people there.  We ordered pizza from Garlic Jims and just kinda chilled and got ready.  Then, we headed off to homecoming and at first it was awkward because no one was dancing, it got more fun after about an hour.  Suprisingly, I am impressed with how much fun I had.

Non Fiction Workshop

I'm not going to lie, I am so nervous for the non fiction workshop.  For the poetry workshop I was so excited, but this is really a personal piece of writing.  This is one of the most nagging and terrifying stories of my life.  I don't know why, but I've decided to share it to someone other than just myself.  I just hope that everyone gets it and understands how deep and dark this time was.  If not, I guess it will just be another piece of writing.

iPods

So, I put my iPod through the washing machine (Not on porpose, it was in my pocket.)
I was really pissed because it stopped working and my parents said I had to pay for a new one, and let's be honest, I have like two dollars.
But today, randomly, my moms like, "Well if you just like help out around the house we can get you and iPod."
I was so excited.
Now, I have the new iPod nano and it's pretty sexy (:

Music.

All Time Low, I love you.

Minds

Typing...
That's all that's on my mind....

Today

Today I woke up, superrrr tired
Got ready, still tired
Had some gross caffinated tea, not as tired
Got to school early, yayyy...
Went to all my classes, awfullll
Got to lunch and dropped my friends ice cream all over my other friend, a billion apologies and napkins
Got through periods 5 and 6 easily, exciting
Phone taken away in 7th period and then escorted to the office and read the rules, would a sorry suffice?
And yet, it was a pretty great day (:

Him

Love...
It's just supposed to be a fairy tale where you meet one night and suddenly you are just head over heels.  No, it isn't like that at all.  When you do meet that someone it takes time to get to know them and find out if they feel the same way about you, and usually your lucky if they do.  Why waste the time chasing after something that's not there?  Now, you could be falling for a mildly decent guy, or just a jackass who says he loves you but never really means it.  The only experience i've had was the jackass, so I guess I don't know the real feeling.  I guess I'm just hoping to find a guy who shows me that not all love is some bullshit way to break your heart...

Why Are We Here

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I don't know why humans are here on Earth...  Thoughts like, are we the only ones?  Who created us?  If God created us where did he come from?  Why is Earth the only known planet that can inhabit humans? Consume my mind day and night.  It may not seem like a very important thought, but really, it is our entire being.  What's more important than that?  I don't know...  Maybe it doesn't matter and I should just not worry about it.  Maybe it is just a nagging thought that won't escape my trembling thoughts.  Maybe I should just leave it be and live.  Maybe...

About me

Hey,
i'm Lauren and i'm a freshman.
I joined creative writing because I like writing and I want to have a career as a journalist or a novelist someday and I figured this would be a good start.  I love snowboarding and hanging out with my friends and family.  I have learned a lot about this life through all the hardships I have had to overcome and it's not an easy life.  In fact, at times, it just sucks.  I try to be optimistic and push through the bad times so I can have more fun in the good times and that's kind of my philosophy.  Well, that's all for now.
Until next time,
Lauren.